quit my job

[zzxxee]

so here it is in a nutshell have had a job on a childrens cancer ward for a few weeks, today found a little boy age two dead , his mum had been told it would be a few hours and was asleep in the chair next to him.
i have worked in care for years but this has beaten me emotionally i thought i would be strong enough to cope with situations like this but not so. Have told my ward manager i cant go back. There are some people who can do this and i admire them but, im just not strong enough. Having a few days out and going back to care for the elderly. Yes it is not nice when they pass on, but at the end of 90 plus years you accept it. I cannot comprehend a 2 year old being taken by such a cruel disease

[LoftyLottie]

zzxxee When you told us about this job I think I said I admired you because I couldn't do it. I still admire you because you gave it your best and realise that it's not for you. I would be exactly the same. I know I couldn't cope. I am glad you are continuing in a caring profession. Good luck for the future. Don't ever kick yourself about this. xx

[zzxxee]

cheers loftie x

[crisper]

Aww bless you zzxxee! So sorry for you..I couldn't do that type of job! Just wanted to send you kind thoughts.. and hope you have a nice weekend... let someone take care of you.. x

[redman41]

If Rowan spots your Post zzxxee, she no doubt could give you some useful advice as she has a lot of experience with Cancer Care having been an Intensive Care Nurse for several Years.

[zzxxee]

im sure she was a fabulous one red and i appreciate what your saying but its just not for me :0(

[grasscarp]

There are lots of jobs I couldnt do, like police and ambulance drivers. I could not have attempted what you did either. I am really upset by what you went through today. It is a tragedy for everyone, especially the poor mother. I dont blame you for quitting. Well done for even trying x

[ljdksa]

Good for you for giving it a go. I'm sure you'll be much happier going back to work with the elderly. I was. You've had a very harsh day and it will probably be on your mind for some time. You obviously feel it's not right for you and has already upset you. I just don't think that's a situation you'd ever get used to.

[zzxxee]

thanks ljd you seem exactly to know where im coming from
cheers everyone else for the kind words x

[ljdksa]

I had a similar experience. It was at least ten years ago now and I still remember it. Have never regretted going back to work with the elderly. Best of luck x

[Dris]

Did you have to be so graphic zxxxee?.
Why did you say anything at all? Beats me -truthfully.
I really have a major problem with anyone who feels they have to beat their own drum........
In fact I personally am perturbed you felt the need to share this.
My Niece had Leukemia-she survived.
What did you want to achieve may I ask from this thread ?

[seadogg]

Seeking a bit of support is no bad thing. In these days when stories of callous carers about reckon you have much to give and your patients are lucky.

[ummmm]

I bet they are going to a bit peeved. They offered you the job...then had to pay for you to get a CRB check done before you can start. Trained you for a week or two...and you haven't given them the courtesy of some notice. They advertised because they needed staff...now they will have to re-advertise...and wait another couple of months for someone elses CRB to come through. That's not very fair IMO...

[Dris]

Well have to agree with ummmm (as it happens).
You applied for this job in October-(my CRB as a by the by came though in 3wks).4Months seems a long time to wait on that.
I have posted this before so im only reiterating -why say you have/.had a got a job in a 'Childrens Cancer Ward'.That isnt professional and also isnt the correct termanology.
Im at odds with another part of your thread zzxxee -I didnt 'accept' it when my Nannie died at 90.I was devastated -i had know her my entire life and i still feel bereft.
I have posted before and i will say again i dont think its either professional nor considerate to post 'inside' info regarding another familes tragedy for any reason at all.
I find it distasteful if im honest.

[Booty40]

i dont generally judge people until ive walked in their shoes

[Dris]

Neither do I Booty.....its pretty sick isnt it?

[Dris]

O sorry -thought you only started a week past Monday -which is 2 weeks (not a few) and im sure you posted you were only going on the Ward (like hands on supervised type thing on Wednesday).Correct me if i misread your other thread re same.
Im not being a pedant but its only fair the facts are presented.

[4getmenot]

we're about to take on the care of disabled children at my work. I wouldnt be able to do it but at least you gave it a go

[Dris]

hmmm

[muchlovex]

Hi Zzxxee, I can only echo others comments, that at least you gave it your best and tried. Nobody can say how they are going to react in such sad situations until you witness it yourself.

Can I just ask one question - have you thought this through properly. You say you found the young poor child passed away today? Maybe if you have a good think about things first.

If you have thought about it and still come to the same conclusion, then that is fine. I admire that you decided to take this job on. I know I couldn't have had the courage to work there. I lost my mum to cancer 3 years ago, she was only 53. She was in the cancer ward at the general for 2 months before she passed away there. I am still afraid of going into hospitals now.

[ummmm]

Horrible isn't it muchlove? I lost my Dad to Cancer 3 years ago this month...

I still think it's shoddy behaviour not giving notice though...