What is wrong with me?

[sair5412]

I am probably getting annoying but i don't know where else to turn (i.e- to real people who can give free advice and insight).

You may or may not have noticed I ask a few questions on diets and eating patterns.

Well after 7 years of being obsessed, i went to the doctors yesterday and described my symptoms because i am so fed up. She gave me a prescription for Prozac (even though i don't feel 'depressed' as such) and told me to come back in a month, but never actually explained what is wrong with me.

Basically i explained that I simply cannot eat 3 meals a day. It is virtually impossible. I either eat loads and feel guilty and angry at myself or i starve myself for days and feel proud of myself and strong and then i seem to develop a fear of being near food in case i 'attack' it. I know i can't go on like this. I don't think i am anorexic or bulimic (i as do eat and i don't make myself sick).

Here is a typical example:
Monday: 8am bowl of porridge
12.30 Chicken salad, snack a jacks, yoghurt..... (followed on to...)
Slice of wholemeal toast & butter, Crunchie bar, cream egg, another 2 slices of toast.

Then i decided i had had enough and wasn't hungry for dinner. Then I seemed possessed and had (sorry this is gross) bowl of coco pops, 4 bread rolls and dip, 4 rashers bacon, naan bread, packet crisps, 3 mr kipling lemon slices. Then i felt terrible and stupid.

Since then i have eaten an apple and a banana. I am too frightened to have anything because it will happen again. I have to shut my stomach down or it will eat everything. The thought of getting fat scares me.

I just want to know what is wrong with me and then i can look for ways to help myself. I've taken the first step and seen the doc, but what next? What is my problem?

Thank you for any help/advice/support. x

[oopsydoopsy]

sorry .
*prozac is an appetite suppressant*

[littlestar17]

I know exactly how you feel..some days i can go without lunch..go running and have a tiny dinner..which makes me feel better about myself..then others i cant stop myself, and once iv eaten something thats unhealthy, i couldnt care less what im eating until i feel sick from eating so much..so then i try and exercise it off and eat as little as possible the next day....my biggest problem is eating at the dinner table..i hate the thought of sitting there and not being able to get away..and i hate the thought people are watching me eat

now my friends have started to notice how i wont go round for dinner or go out for meals..and they have commented on how iv lost weight..im not consiously trying to loose the weight..i just hate sitting at a table eating and cant enjoy food like i used to..

iv had a serious boyfriend for 2 years now and hes started to comment on my mood swings..i dont want this to break us up as i love him..but i dont know how to get myself out of this frame of mind

have you done anything you have found has helped you?any help will be much appreciated!!

Thank you! x