Nailit, I'm afraid I am not impressed with your grasp of the bible, Christianity or history, and that from somebody who is no scholar and easily impressed.
Bit by bit by bit you are building up a picture of yourself in my mind, that had I been a psychologist, I would be having a field day!
But I'm not, and therefore, I'm not.
However, (yes, there's always a, ''however,''), I would suggest that your endless questions on the subject are not borne of any hobby or mere interest on your part, but that deep down your soul is screaming out for some kind of reassurance, and when you don't find it, you become a loose cannon, blasting each way and which way trying to destroy the very thing that eludes you.
If I am even half right, swallow your pride and say so.
After all, it only a load of Answerbankers who will see your answer, and who are they anyway?
Your friends? Great! Mine too! And friends won't harm you, and anybody else can go and, erm, do one!