the final straw

[lung cancer]

ok all my dear friends. I have just picked the final straw of the first made love to my girlfriend when we were both sweet 18. I lived on a farm and she came round, we had a few drinks and we made love in the barn. We both said it wasnt amazing sex but it was so emotional. For me now sitting where I am it was the best time in my life. Im sure she will not think the same but i cling to it as if its the only bit of good in my life. Im crying now