In One Of Dave's Favourite Pubs

[rowanwitch]

And it's strange and difficult. But the beer is good.

[ummmm]

I bet it is. I still can't even drive past my dads house. I go the long way. Silly I know.

You're still raw. It'll get easier. x

[Arksided]

I can only imagine how strange it must feel... but so long as the beers good. Xx

[rowanwitch]

Too soon really but I forced myself because if it scares you it needs facing down.

[rowanwitch]

Beer is blooming brilliant
fixed wheel no brakes ipa 5.9 %
Enville ginger next

[pastafreak]

I hope you are with friends ♡

[rowanwitch]

No solo, but that's what I am now

[NoMercy]

I'd have been delighted to join you today, Rowan, but I daresay you wanted to overcome this hurdle by yourself.

There have been a few times in the last couple of years where I just needed to be on my own to reflect ... to get my head around everything ... to quietly contemplate. When people interrupted my thoughts I'd snap at them. I'd zoned out and I didn't want to be disturbed.

Well done, Rowan. You were an amazing wife to Dave and you are one heck of a strong, dignified lady.

[rowanwitch]

Thanks, have to say I don't see it like that, but I am determined to live the way I promised Dave I would. I only choked up when Dawn and Mick the licensees came up and hugged me... I just had to tell them I can't deal with people being too nice right now.

[Eleena]

It takes guts to push past our fears Rowan when we feel fragile. Keep on going, and hats off to you x

[gness]

Rowan.....Two people made me promise to live the lives they were going to be deprived of......and I do but it was bloody difficult in the early days....
Yes....the hugs and the kind words meant so well are what knocks us for six...
I spent a lot of time on my own after MrG's death...through choice because it was the only way I could come to terms with what happened in my own time.....
When I was ready I could face the world and join it again......but that has to be when it's right for you.....
Take care....Gx

[rowanwitch]

Its always the kind words that get you... one of my friends has been brilliant after a quick 'you ok' it's 'do you want to do anything on my day off or one evening' if I say not right now she just steps back and I get a message a couple of days later.

[waterboatman]

I know what you're going through rowan. It does get easier. I promise. I looked at it as closing doors. Going on my own to places we'd been, things like that. You will always miss Dave and you will always love him, just as I still love Vera. xxx