Your post and the one from MEMicetef1 on Reddit.com are identical. Looking at his posting history on here, they are very similar to this post which would lead most people to conclude you are the same person with multiple identities.
That could sum up your 'perspective' in real life. The identoty you project and the real you are not the same. You should just come out and be the real you. Pretending to be something different is not good. You have taken the step of revealing your preferences anonymously to strangers. Now you must take the bold step of doing the same in the real world. Until you do so, you will be unhappy.
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