Can’t Sleep

[Redhelen72]

Not sure if it’s jet lag or sadness.
Went to sleep at my normal time but now wide awake.
In my old house I would have baked or made cheese but can’t in the cottage as he would be able to hear me!
So sitting here with a hot drink and my knitting but even that isn’t comforting me.

[choux]

Hello. Might this help? ((((x))))
No reason it should of course.

[choux]

Are your needles of the silent plastic sort? ;)

[Redhelen72]

Thank you himself has been very good with hugs since last night (he’s not a huggy person) I wish hugs would help.
I am not a night person at all this is all very alien to me.

[wolf63]

Is it safe to go for a walk with the dogs?

I used to that but both of my boys were part GSD and very protective.

[Redhelen72]

Yup! Knitting a cat blanket not that the girls need another one but I like to have a pile of clean soft ones for them as the feel the chill now they are getting on.

[MissTerious]

Thinking of you Red. So sad. Losing a beloved pet is awful. Over the years we have lost so many and they were all part of our family. I am so sorry.

[Redhelen72]

Not really also it would mean having to walk past the spot we found Brice and I am not ready for that yet.
The dogs are sparked out after their stay at the kennels

[Redhelen72]

Thanks LL, I think I am struggling with guilt! I put in a cat flap as he like to stay in all day and go out at night, he would bully the girls when locked up for 24 hours a day so for peace I put it in for when we were away and of course this ended horribly

[Stargazer]

hello Helen. I am awake and have just done Wordle in three.

[choux]

I feel for you both too. You came home from what I hoped was a fabulous holiday and special birthday to such a tragic sight. It must have been the worst shock to get. Poor Brice.

Thank goodness you have your faithful hounds back to the fold now.

[MissTerious]

We buried Alice with her blanket around her and planted a rose over. I was so upset she died when I wasn't there. I felt guilty about it. I totally understand how you must be feeling xx

[choux]

You did the cat flap out of love for him, please don't beat yourself up about it now. How are the girls managing?

[Redhelen72]

Thanks Choux
LL we did the same, except I have ordered a lily plant with the name Bryce to plant over him, I was going to plant Angel Wings but himself pointed out that Brice was no angel and that the wildlife population was now a lot lot safer

[wolf63]

During the day it is easy to keep busy but during the night things just go round and round in your mind.

Its not easy when you lose a little furry bairn.

Cyber hugs xx

[Redhelen72]

The girls never really liked him lol he nearly killed Bolly with a bite!! Jess however is a different kettle of fish she adored him (she found him) and has walk round the cottage and garden looking for him! We have let her out the front get (where he is buried)

[choux]

Sorry Redhelen, Bryce, my spelling of names is failing me tonight.

Don't stay up on here too late, there are usually only weird ones posting at this time...
;)

[Redhelen72]

Thanks all going to try and sleep on the sofa as bolly and piper have just joined me.
Thanks for the company xx

[Barmaid]

It will be a mixture of both, but trying to analyse why will not help you sleep. I hardly slept at all for 2 or 3 nights after ASBO died.

1. Do not get stressed about it, it's normal. Your body will eventually say "enough" and you will start sleeping.
2. It's ok and normal to feel like ***.
3. Sit or lay down somewhere comfortable, then start your brain thinking of something of no consequence (my favourite thing is to think about one of my family history brick walls - it's terribly repetitive and boring and generally I'll nod off).
4. If you don't nod off, don't get stressed about it. Accept it's *** cos it is but know that this too shall pass.

[choux]

I know what that is like when you have more than one furbaby and then sadly loose one. As if it was not bad enough when we humans miss them.

Well, I am going to try and get a nap in now. I hope you can soon return to bed and get some sleep again. You have a long weekend to sort out your body clock. Night night to you x

[seekeerz]

As HM so wisely said …’grief is the price we pay for love’ …not sure when she said it but it helps put things in perspective