Bullimic

[Curious79]

Has anyone here suffered from bullimia.  If so, for how long, how bad did it get and what made you stop?  I would really appreciate some truthful answers x

[Little Lady]

I used to have a friend who was bullimic, she wouldn't admit it but me and another friend knew she was. We used to find sick in the toilet, she would always disappear not long after eating etc. She used to live miles away when she was younger then her parent remorgaged their house to send her to a london clinic to releive her annorexia, she got better then moved up north. Now she is bullimic not sure if she still is as we parted ways about 6 months ago.......

[nu]

I used to make myself sick after every meal, I really hated feeling full. I never binged on food like you hear sometimes of people downing biscuits crisps and whatever they can get their hands on and then throwing it up again. Just normal lunch and dinners that where actually quite healthy in the first place. I used to weigh myself every day as well and take loads of laxatives every night. I really thought I was fat. It was probably a mix of anorexia and bulimia. My weight dropped below 7st which for me being petite anyway made me thin but not  so thin that people where over concerned. I was quite sly that way, it was my little secret.This probably happened on and off for about 4 years and over the last 4 years I've probably only made myself sick a handful of times and it was for the same reason I just wanted the food out of my body and hated feeling full. Now I look back and I can hardly believe I used to do it every day, I think I was using it as a way of control when other things where out of control.

I've never been a huge eater of junk food and I'm even healthier now and have realised that I can eat by and large what I want and I'm still size 10.Now I eat and eat, I'm a bit of a starvo to be honest.

What made me stop? I think realising the damage I was doing to my insides plus mentally and it is tiring all the sneaking about after eating especially when you are in company plus all that gorgeous food is a waste.

 Hope this helps.

[PurplePixie]

Yep, I used to be bulimic & anorexic at different stages of an eating nightmare. It lasted about 8 years in all (although I think my attitude to food had never been very good all my life)  At worst I was eating nothing all day & eating about �20 of food at night & chucking it all up...then I'd pass out & get up in the morning, go to work & do it all again. I felt nothing,just like a zombie.

Finally I collapsed & was taken to hospital where I stayed for 6 months, then to another hospital where I stayed for 2 years...then I came out & was still very ill...basically the hospital had given up on me & expected me to die.

 It's a very long story, but after a lot of soul searching & working out of myself I managed to slowly get free from all my eating problems. I know for sure that none of my eating problems had anything to do with food or calories & had everything to do with my very screwed up & hurtful childhood. I am an average weight now & am completely relaxed around food...happy & at peace about my childhood, so it can be done! 

Although it feels at times that you will nevr get over it, I am living proof that even the worst cases are possible to recover from.

[FP]

Well done Purple Pixie and nu!    I had a very good friend who suffered from bullemia.  It was just so sad.  She was actually the most beautiful girl with an outstanding figure and a wonderful personality, but apparently underneath it all she felt no self worth.  She was in a very bad marriage and her husband continually put her down.  .  However, she met a great man, moved to France and changed her life completely.  She is now very happy and the problem has gone. .