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Thanks everyone, am gonna try it. And thanks Boo, gonna try and be me biggy bravest for that day, dreading it but me Mum wunt want me to be upset would she ? Blummin am tho, it's awful, in the space of 12 months I have lost me Mum, me marriage and hit the menopause,at which I have realised it's too late to have children.Would have LOVED them but ex stamped on that idea, I was the stupid woman that thought I could change him. Lost 2 babies and now feel like ****. Then cos of all that fell into a relationship I had no right to be in,just for comfort ,but fell for him big time,and I mean big time,never felt emotion like it.It's over now, which is killing me. Don't deserve any sympathy for that tho, I know it but that doesn't make it easier, am 44 and have never felt for a bloke like I feel for him. It hurts so much.
Crikey how a thread can take a turn, am roaring me head off now,any help or kind words would be appreciated x x