Deep Depression

[flump1]

Ok so right now I am low and got to thinking why ? Not why me, more why must I be happy? Why must I take tablets that sometimes don't work but have side effects? Why must I try and put on a smile ? Where is the bloody law that says I have to be happy? Why can I not just be a complete miserable cow and be left alone?

[cupid04]

Hello flump. I feel sad like you sometimes. Have you got specific worries?
With me it's just old age creeping on:-(. Much love to you and hope your mood lifts soon.xx

[ummmm]

I think misery is sometimes a good thing. You'll deal with issues easier if you let yourself wallow than if you would by pretending.

[grasscarp]

We are all up and down at different times. Only problem is when you get so low you don't feel life is worth living. Are you ok today?

[Maydup]

Aww flump, just how my OH is feeling at the moment and all down to the tablets. Its not the law to be churpy or happy but its easier on those around you when you are. So curl up with a warm drink, put the TV on and watch the men going down that ice slope on their tea tray. Its about to start but if its not your thing maybe there's a good film on? Either way find a way to be left alone and you will certainly feel better i agree.

[Connemmara]

I am sad too flump - still sitting in my nightie and dressing gown - can't get the oomph to get up and clean the bl dy house.

I do think the weather is part of it - live on my own so don't need to smile - otherwise my dog will think me crazy. He sighs too as if he is fed up too -

[Sparkles62]

flump, I think that everybody is entitled to a down day every now and then, the days when you just want to curl up and be left alone, in my opinion I think that is fine, its just when these days turn into weeks, or even worse, months , then people start to worry about you. X
Have your down day hon, you don't have to put a happy face on just to please other people, just try not to let your days turn into weeks. X X

[flump1]

Thank you all, everything is an effort, I do not want to eat, drink actually I don't want anything. I can think of no one single thing . Just peace. And my rat x

[Tilly2]

Well, you have to be upbeat for your rat, flump. Rats don't like depression. They are happy little things.

[cupid04]

Please try and eat something even if it's just a hot drink and a piece of toast. You need to keep your strength up. Much love to you flump.xx

[pixie373]

It is normal to have off-days and want time to yourself. As sparkles says, it depends on the length of time and how it generally affects your life. If you just prefer your own company, there is nothing wrong with that. But i doubt you'd have posted if it didn't bother you at all, so if you feel it's detrimental to you, book an appointment with your GP.

[Eve]

I have similar days when I just want to hole myself up and for the world to go away. No harm in being on your own if it will help. Nothing worse than trying to be all "happy" around others when you just feel grumpy and in pain and just don't want to move.

I try to get myself interested in series' on TV, like box sets, something that I can really get myself into and can just wrap myself up on the sofa and watch and switch off from everything else, maybe something like that Netflix? Maybe go and get yourself some goodies in when you feel more like eating or something nice to drink like some hot chocolate if you like that (and go mad with the whipped cream and marshmallows :)).

As others have said, if it carries on and is something that is worrying you then pop and see your GP. Don't force eating if you don't feel like you can, as long as you keep your fluids up and there is no medical issue a day or so won't hurt.

[flump1]

Thank you all, I am medicated for depression and carry an emergency phone number, I am so fed up being fed up. Me and rat are curled up on my bed, he is a charming little fellow.

[Eve]

Rats are lovely lovely creatures. I had a pet rat called Bailey, he was a great little fella. He'd get sad when I was away volunteering so I'd get the phone put by him and talk to him down it to perk him up :)

[Tilly2]

Eve, how did you manage to train Bailey to answer the phone?

[woofgang]

well flump, you don't have to take the tablets, its your choice. However, if you don't eat and drink and take a bit of care of yourself, who will take care of your rat? I have never taken medication for depression, but there have been times when only my dogs have made me get up and take a bit of care of myself so that I could take care of my boys.

[Eve]

Other people there to pick up the phone and take it to him :) I know, I'm soft! :)

[pixie373]

Are you willing to say what medication and dose?

[flump1]

Hi Pixie
Fluoxetine 40mg Amitriptyline20mg as well as Prednlone, MTX, Omeprazole, Codine Phosphate, Oralmprph when it's bad. And B12 jab, that feels ineffective at the moment.

[pixie373]

They are fairly heavy-duty medications, then. I assume your GP is keeping regular appointments with you and adjusting where necessary? Do you have oramorph for chronic pain? Because that in itself can make everything seem a struggle.

[flump1]

I do yes Pixie and only ever use it when I absolutely have to. Just got to wondering why I can't be left to be a miserable old bitch in peace ? It seems everyone has an obligation to be happy. No can do right now. x