rough quest, so sorry you so very down, big hug! In all honesty though, I don't really think you should have expected him to tell his boss to stick his meetingfor the sake of a party. That's just unrealistic. His work is his livelihood. The best way to get rid of someone you feel strongly about is to put them under unnecessary pressure, which I know you say you haven't done. I fully understand that you felt disappointed about him having to work, but this is not his fault. I am really not trying to upset you, but I think you should apologise to him and tell him that you were overreacting, because you were missing him so much, and that you really didn't mean to break things off with him. To make any relationship work you need to be a bit more easy-going and not expect to always come first. Perhaps you DO come first in his mind, but he will be under a lot of pressure from his work and the last thing he needs is further pressure in his private life. He said that he understands you being angry and maybe he was just as angry about having to work as you. So why don't you bend a little and try to put yourself in his shoes. Would you jeopardise your job for a few hours with him when there will be many more times when you can be together. Try to get yourself in a positive mood again and then phone him. He obviously cares about you and you need to show him that you genuinely care about him. He was right to be surprised that you would not want to see him ever again because of such a fairly trivial matter. You ask "why he is doing this to someone he says he loves?" Well, I think he should be the one asking you this question. So, make it up to him and hopefully everything will slot into place again. I really hope it all works out for you and you feel a lot better very soon. xx :o)