Hi Petal, maybe you`ll see this tomorrow. Anyway, just wanted to say: don`t look upon those 5 years as wasted. It was a learning time and the lesson you learned should not be repeated. In other words, raise your self esteem and do NOT choose a man of similar vein in order to repeat the same mistake again.
I know what you are feeling about texting him etc. Dig deep down inside you to get the will-power you need to face the fact that this man is NOT for you, and certainly not good enough for you.