How real are you on sites like this?
personally, ive shared a lot of personnel info over time on AB (prison, psych hospitals, etc)but theres loads that I havnt shared. I share the occasional thought on FB but no one really knows me except for what I choose to share.
If anybody could see whats in my head at any given moment, I'd be locked up (probably in a psych hospital again).
I go through periods where suicide seems the only way to end the pain.. I took an overdose once, probably when I was about , all it did was to make me sleep for three days.
I had to give up working, this was something that I had dreaded. It has actually taken away a lot of stress.
In many ways I am lucky and I am financially secure for the first time.
But the demons will always be there.
Look after yourself and take their happy tablets - some of them actually work.
Nailit, what you see is what you get with me. However I don't share too much personal stuff. Having said that I'll share that I am a Samaritan - have you ever called them? Free call 116 123. Be more than happy to talk to you anytime 24/7.
Is there someone - a counsellor - perhaps - or a clinician - who may have helped you in the past and/or someone you trust enough to be able to talk to them?
Nailit has been so very badly let down by the system... I doubt there is anyone in the scope of things he is likely to trust..and I really don't blame him... you have been through tough times Nailit, this is a wee hiatus..hang in there...please xx
There is an awful lot of stuff I wont discuss on here, but the stuff I do discuss is real.
Nailit if you dont feel you can talk to a professional, please talk to a friend or keep talking on here. Is there someone you trust to check on you regularly?
A wise woman once told me "this too shall pass" and it will.