What A Week Last Week Was

[queenofmean]

...I hope this one is better!

I came down with a nasty cold. I suffered a bad panic attack, I haven't had one since I was a teenager, Dr reckons it is all stemmed with not having really stopped since losing mum. I even had to take time off work - I wasn't too happy but I realise now that it was for the best. My toe kicked off in spectacular fashion again - 2nd round of antibiotics nearly finished. Had to cart Teddy back to the Vet as well (be looking for a door key there shortly). OH got kept in custody on Friday, he has been released without charge and he is innocent too, so that set me off again. But he came through at the weekend and we just watched TV and chatted (he did I listened)

I know its not a question per se but I wanted to get it off my chest a bit and I know you lot are great listeners and until I get my counselling appointment through, I guessed you wouldn't mind me talking.

Hope you are all well
Queenie xx

[marval]

Sorry you had such a bad week queenie, I am sure things will slowly get better.

You know we are good listeners here, so talk away.xx

[pixie374]

A lot going on, Queenie xx look after yourself xx

[Mamyalynne]

Sometimes things gather up and come all at once and we crumble a bit , keep talking and things should settle soon - take care Queenie.

[Buenchico]

I think that you should take a short break, QoM, in the company of Mrs_O, Caran and Gness.

What could possibly go wrong?

;-)

[queenofmean]

Thank you Marval, Pixie and Mamya.

I'd basically just ran myself into the ground, partly because I cannot switch off.

I am taking it easy this week, Wednesday is going to be a day plonked in front of the TV as I have so much to catch up on. Today and tomorrow I'm catching up on laundry as I have a severe backlog, but I have just started a good book so have that to keep me amused xx

[queenofmean]

Goodness only knows Buenchico ;)

[Psybbo]

Hi Queenie, I hope things settle down for you. It is strange how everything hits at once xxx

[queenofmean]

Hi Sib, me too, the amazing thing is that the only thing that went right was my diabetes. I knew I was heading for trouble but I didn't think it would be so soon and like that. I mean I broke down making breakfast and just sitting on the sofa watching telly. But I had a brilliant cry on Friday night after hearing about OH, I went to bed and slept (I've sort of become scared of sleeping) and I woke up and I felt like some weight had been lifted off my shoulders a little, but I do realise I have a long way to go

[mrs_overall]

Hi queenie. Sorry to hear you had such a rotten week. I've got that song running through my head "Things Can Only Get Better."
Take no notice of Buenchico - he never recovered from the blow to his head when his mother dropped him in the coal scuttle when he was a baby.
I truly hope things are on the up for you xx

[DTCwordfan]

when it rains it pours, any chance though of getting away for even a long w/end somewhere....that isn't such a bad idea.

By the way, mazie had a lovely meal up at the Ship in Elie.....I stayed there many years ago....

What's the OH been up to? Grand larceny in Kirkcaldy - surely not - abusing a Raith Rovers fan - perhaps.....

[queenofmean]

Hi Mrs_O, funny I was thinking that too! I hope things are looking up for you too (I read about your wee run in with the porridge ;) ) xx

[DTCwordfan]

Hi Psybbs and Mrs O - hope you two are 'en forme'......

[queenofmean]

In my world at the moment DT its pouring, but at the moment cloudy outlook with a hint of showers!
I haven't got much free time at the moment to go away, but OH and I are planning maybe in the summer if I am off when he is.
I'll email you the full details but alleged vandalism - only thing he vandalises is my bedroom at weekends when he is over, clothes and juice cans all over the shop LOL

[DTCwordfan]

just take care on that front, Queenie, and get a letter of apology from the Scottish pigs as things can stick.....

[jourdain2]

Sometimes it feels never-ending, queenofmean. May I ask when you lost your mum? I was SO determined to cope, and did, that I did not mourn properly. My doctor tried to provide bereavement counselling, but the wait was a year. 9 months after her death my life and emotions exploded, I just couldn't cope and was an emotional mess. Dr. explained that losing your mum is like a backward pregnancy and 9 monhs-ish is critical.

Life, unfortunately, doesn't give up with walloping you. I came through, you will too. Good luck with coping. You can always 'let off' on here. :o) XXX

[Psybbo]

Hi DTC, I hope your 'man flu' is easing x

[DTCwordfan]

thanks, largely out, a session with the lawn mower chopping down wild garlic helped sort it.

QoM, the final release as such can take a long time - in my experience it can take quite a while - with my old man (to whom I was close) it came at my baby sister's wedding after another incident. She didn't see it, the ex did, but I lost it at 3am the night before......

[DTCwordfan]

oh a xx to both of you....

[queenofmean]

I don't think anything can stick on this DT, but I'll fill you in shortly.

Jourdain, mum passed away 11th January this year. I think what I find it causing me no end of grief is the fact that we still don't know what caused her to pass, I think when we get the results that might bring me some closure, but only time will tell. As ummm said you won't get over it - and I believe she is right there. I was same, I was determined I wouldn't break down or show any emotion, but that is what gets you when you try and get by and cope, you realise that you can't. Life never seems to stop walloping me, just when I thing its done I go in for another cycle. But I will come out the other side at some point though :) xx

I understand that DT - I don't think I have properly grieved for the loss of my 2 papa's whom I was close to and that was 18 and 10 years respectively, this could all come to a head at some point