It's very, very hard to lose a beloved Mum (and Dad). Mine have been gone now for four and five years respectively and there are still many days when it feels raw and I physically ache to look at them one more time and see Mum's lovely smile. I agree with Clarion about clearing out the house, I hated looking through all of Mum's personal things, I felt I was snooping amongst her belongings. Sadly, it's something we all have to go through at some point, but it doesn't make it any easier.