Before you go to bed. I'm not talking about having a wee. For me it's having a smoke out of the window and thinking of the grandkids I will never have.
Jeza, there are no words to answer how you must feel, therefore the last thing I do is thank my lucky stars for everything I am lucky to have....oh and take my specs off (if I remember) - no one here to take them of me now if I forget. :-)
Make sure all the doors are locked. Get something out the freezer for tomorrows dinner[or pretend to forget] then I can have a take-away!
Then I have a look on here to see if there's anything interesting. Then I finally go to bed and read until my eyelids are droopy, then hopefully zzzzzzz!
Turn the TV and the computer off, wash the dishes, go to the loo,make sure my alarm is set, turn off the lamp, and go to sleep.
I try not to think about things that might keep me awake or give me nightmares :-)
Give the cat a little snuggle (well as much as I can get away with before he tries to bite my nose off), stick my head out the back door for a ciggie, few gulps of milk, tuck up in bed then off to snoozeland.
I doubt I'll be having any grandkids either, no sign yet and the clocks ticking.
I look out of the bedroom window to see if the foxes have been for the food
I put out for them, then TRY[i and remove my cat, so that I can get in
]HER/MY[i] bed, if she's not moving, then I put AB on, which is usually most
nights, in bed. Last thing, switch off, lights off, sleep hopefully.
I have a pile of about ten books on my bedside table, all "on the go".
I like to dip into different genres of book, depending on my mood ... bit of a murder thriller, bit of a bio, bit of a chick lit, bit of a non fic, bit of a rom com, etc.