How do I stop my Jelousy

[dyslexicme]

My older sister slept with my first boyfriend when I was 15 and I ended up in a psychiatric ward missing out on my education, back in the 80s .
I have had problems trusting and feeling secure with anyone since .
If ,my now boyfriend shows interest or is friendly with another woman then I have a panic attack and can go into a jealous rage,
I am at my wits end as to what to do about it as I always seriously beleave they are going to want this other woman .
Ive tried the following .
Looking at the web. Counseling , prescription drugs . Staying single , Playing them at their own game , Prostitution and attempted Suicide.
Is there any help for this woman of 43 with such low esteem. ?

[tinkerbell23]

I have read that councelling dosent always work first time and mabye try again you may be more open to it now!

I hav no doubt that you are a lovely person inside and out just remember that! Hope it ll works out for you cos honestly not all people are out to hurt you xxxx best of luck