21 Weeks Sober

[nailedit]

And then fall of the wagon fgs!

Sometimes I really don't like myself very much.

[MargoTester]

It's a shame but not the end of the world. What triggered it do do think? Don't let it start you down a rocky road again haveing done so well. Easy for me to say I know

[MargoTester]

^having

[Captain2]

Pick yourself up, brush yourself down and go again, nailedit. You've done remarkably well so far - show it who's boss! Good Luck.

[barry1010]

Don't be too hard on yourself, just make sure to start again.

[ToraToraTora]

Don't give up, treat this like an accident and start again. remember how you felt when you cracked it, you want to get that back. Keep going, we are all rooting for you.

[Rosetta]

AS others have said, treat as a blip and climb back on that wagon. Remember how much better you felt both physically and psychologically when you got dry 

[nailedit]

Bottom line is I can't deal with sobriety/reality.

Ive got stuff in my head from 50 years ago when I was a child that just won't go. Getting trollied at least gives some tempory relief.

Ironically, I spent this morning on a relapse prevention course.

Couldnt make it up...

thanks for replies all anyway. Appriciate it.

[Hopkirk]

Be strong mate. You can do it.

 

[Lie-in King]

Remember how much pleasure you got from being sober with your family & get back on the wagon, nailedit, before it's too far down the road.  I wish you all the best for a quick restart!

[Patsy33]

You won't be the first or last for this to happen, Nailedit. Don't beat yourself up. Life is hard to deal with. Most of us have or had issues in life. Just start again, you can do it. x

[Peter Pedant]

oh god sorry - but pick yourself up, and start again

[Dizmo]

Hey nailedit, long time no speak (my fault, not yours).

Well done for being clean for 21 weeks - that's no small feat. Most alcoholics in recovery lapse from time to time (relapsing isn't that uncommon either).

Try not to beat yourself up too much. It will eventually get easier - it did for me. I hope you're feeling better soon. Take one day at a time and don't be too hard on yourself.

[Rosie29]

I'm glad you've let us know how you are.  I'm sure I speak for us all when I say we think about you and care how you are dear Nailedit.   X

[jourdain2]

We're all wanting you to climb back on that wagon and  stay there this time, nailedit.  Perhaps re-reading your posts about how much better you felt when sober will help.

Reality isn't always easy to deal with by any means - but an extra problem is  not one you need.  We know you can do it and we're all on your side. :)

[divegirl]

Oh nails, what are we going to do with you?

As has been said, please don't beat yourself up, tomorrow really is a new start :)  Sadly your past will still be the same you just have to learn to let go of what you really can not change. 

I offered to give you my number yonks ago so let me know if you'd like that chat and I'll post my throwaway email xx

 

[fiveleaves]

A toddler falls over many times when learning to walk. Everyone falls off a bicycle when learning to cycle.

Its not so much about relapsing, its about getting back up and staying sober again

[Canary42]

How sad nailedit, but at least you had the guts to come along here and admit it to us all - only to find we're all still rooting for you (no need for us to bash you, you do a good job at that yourself😀). So kick it into touch again, think how good you felt last time, think how many folk here are right behind you, and go for it again. Good luck mate.

[fraser]

so you fancy a drink, have one just keep it in moderation and enjoy life, i drink every day but controlled it, all the best hope you are enjoying your time with your granddaughter.

[rowanwitch]

Fraser, that's not an option

The dark stuff from the past was your reality.... It isn't your reality now.  Took me decades of hard work to get to the point where I could see the truth of it.  But those terrible things that happened,  they sculpted the good side of you too, when you are harmed by others you learn the need not to cause harm in return,  when all that you are is seen (including by yourself) as valueless you learnt  what is  valuable.    A child will learn to be unkind if treated unkindly,but may blossom when kindness is found.   We don't know til we grow old what we have learned but I do know one gift is that of perspective, take the darkness, it is only part of you, look at it and see what good is in you because you fought it, and survived it. Then back to baby steps, each one takes you further away from the bad stuff.

 

I hope this made sense.... I really wish you all the best

[RandyMarsh]

It will be 2 years without booze for me next Friday. There are other things you can that scratch the itch. Do you know any hippies? 

21 weeks shows that you can do it.