Not all memories are bad Baths, oh dear, you really took on a lot, it's an unnatural tiredness, that's why I'm delighted you will be getting your appointments moved to an earlier time, once you get home, you're liable to sleep standing up - as you see today. Are you using the little walking aid while you are out. I have a lot of good memories too, best thing is, all the fighting, the pain, the tiredness and whatever came with it, I'm here, there's not many can say that. Just go with the flow and remember, sleeping and eating (even small amounts) is so important to recover. Be kind to yourself. I used to have the radiologists amused with my calling the treatment being zapped, I told my oncologist how many times I'd been zapped when he reviewed my treatment and he'd give a little smile as he glanced at me over his half cut specs :) then he told me I needed another 2 booster zaps, I wasn't smiling for a few hours after that, the inner child was throwing a hissy fit, I got over it, only another 2 days. Ah, I'm sorry you felt the effects so soon after your first treatment, I'm delighted to read how kind the staff were to you in the shopping centre, what were you thinking going out in the storm? bring a friend or your OH with you if you can when going out, I know you have to get the essentials in, I still have to do that stuff, I'm often (even now) confined to bed, easy for medical staff to say when I need to get in a shopping, pay bills and see folk, everyone likes to feel that life is normal, so, I often listen to my nurse, lie there, all tucked up, once I see back of her car turn the corner onto the main road, I'm up and out before she can think of her next house call.