Ive Lost So Many Friends In The Past

[nailedit]

to suicide and addiction problems.
I'm going down the same path.
I honestly don't know what to do or which way to turn.
The past few months have been a roundabout of waking up in A&E after banging my head or in the cells for being drunk & disorderly .
I honestly don't know which way to turn.
My family dont speak to me.
My age and past criminal record is against me.
I give up...

[Buenchico]

The only person who can change things is YOU, Nailit.

We can make suggestions for you but it's YOU who's got to act.

For example, I provided you with links to AA groups in your area but they'll be useless unless
(a) you get in touch with them ; and
(b) you make up your mind that you really WANT things to change.

[mallyh]

What happened ,you were doing so well x

[LadyCG]

What happened to your job at the Food Bank?

You could make money in other ways rather than having a job that requires a clean sheet. My friend is a car booter and she makes a pretty penny selling the stuff she finds.

You don't have to turn your entire life around in one day, just take one step at a time.

[Hazlinny]

Nailedit ...there's not much I can add to what's already been previously advised in reply to your earlier post. It's all down to you, difficult though it may seem. Your GP and Social Worker will probably have advised you to stop drinking as a first step - in my local town, there are several workshops offering a variety of crafts to get people back into the workplace - are there similar where you live?
Remember - there's so much to live for. x

[barry1010]

Thinking of you and hope you pull through this crisis. No advice except keep breathing and think of your baby grandchild who wants to get to know you.

[-SharonA-]

Nailedit, what's going on man?? Come on & pull yourself together.
Stop with the whining. Only you can help yourself & you know there's plenty of help out there. But you gotta take that first step.
Everyone on here is rooting for you, but only you can start that journey to getting better with help. Do it.

[Patsy33]

Are you still on medication? I know back along, you came of them. Try and cut down on your drinking, maybe have a word with your gp, who might be able to help you.
Hope you can make a start. Think of your little granddaughter, which I'm sure she loves you very much. Please try Nailit.

[Atheist]

If you are too weak to help your granddaughter then she's better off without you. Except; she will always remember you as a weakling and will always worry that she may be as weak as you. Don't set her a bad example. Either kill yourself because you can't be bothered to live and you don't care about her feelings, or make the effort to live and show her that you want her to be better than you.
Did you have a parent or grandparent who dumped you in your childhood, and beggared off leaving you in the lurch? Life is not just about you.
Sorry, Nailedit. I do think you have to take some responsibility in your life. If you can't, then you can't. If you can, then do it.
Best wishes and I hope for her sake that you do the right thing.

[LadyCG]

A bit of compassion doesn't cost anything, Atheist.

[Atheist]

Compassion for the poor granddaughter.

[andres]

This is not the time to be putting a guilt trip on Nailit. He needs some understanding and helpful advice from professional people.

[jourdain2]

Nailed-it - we've done our best for you. You cannot say that you are friendless. There are a lot of people here who want you to come out of this.
You were doing well a few years ago. SO you can do well again. Don't expect wonders, but you CAN climb off the roundabout.

I wish a man named M... could speak to you. He is currently taking his doctorate in Creative Writing and I am on one of his courses. He has a book coming out soon - all about the manic gay drug and sex scene he was caught up in. He was, like you, a hopeless alcoholic and has told me of waking up in hospital with no idea of how he got there or what he had done. His memories are often harrowing.

LISTEN Nailit - this man is now a lecturer and he is clean of drink and drugs, earning a living and liked by and helping people like me.

It comes down to you. To you saying 'NO' - and then saying 'NO' again and again and again. This will not make all the other stuff disappear, but you will have a toehold from which to fight back.

I have now run out of words. But if you make the smallest effort you know that there will be support on here. Life is tough. It will be for your granddaughter too. It would be nice if you could help her.

[barry1010]

I have a spare bed if you fancy a change for a few nights

[nailedit]

//If you are too weak to help your granddaughter then she's better off without you//
Echohing my own thoughts...

//Did you have a parent or grandparent who dumped you in your childhood, and beggared off leaving you in the lurch?//
No. I had worse than that.
I had people who were there constantly.

People who thought that it was acceptable to feel me up as a child and then to chuck ashtrays and mugs of hot tea at me when i came home not knowing where to turn for any comfort or safety.

[Toorak]

Nailedit you are clearly suffering the effects of trauma stemming from childhood abuse. Have you tried contacting this organisation?

I really do wish you well and that you get the support you need. Take care.

https://napac.org.uk/

[nailedit]

Ending up in A&E every few weeks or so.
Just keep getting alcohol 'specialist' giving me an alcohol reduction sheet.
I give up. Addiction is a symptom. What don't they get?

[Toorak]

Please go to your GP and ask for a referral for trauma counselling. You need to address the core of your problems (your drinking, anger etc. is likely to be a symptom of trauma, not the problems themselves). Meantime please contact the link I provided.

[DarceyK123]

So what happened to the job you liked at the food bank?

[nailedit]

Toorak
My GP is great but just doesnt get it!

//So what happened to the job you liked at the food bank? //
I was zonked out on pills. Missising time from work.
Always 24/7 knackered

[Toorak]

Go back to your GP and set out exactly what the issues are. I would expect any competent GP to recognise the issues here and make a referral for trauma counselling. There is no point constantly referring you to addiction services when that is not the underlying issue. Please persist.