Hi Mickey, I smoked off and on, since the age of 15. At my "peak", I smoked 35 a day and lighting up a cigarette was the first thing I did every morning. Whilst driving to work, I'd be smoking my 5th cigarette of the day.
I couldn't imagine waking up, finishing off a good meal, gardening, playing chess, etc etc without a cigarette!
I finally gave up with the help of patches (with chewing gum at points of crisis). I took strength from the fact that the physical addiction takes (only) 10 days to break ~ the social addiction takes longer.
In the past, I had found any excuse to have "just one more", to find that I was back at full addiction within two or three days.
With full knowledge of the strength of the addictive atttraction, I haven't smoked in over 10 years.
You'll get there, if you're serious about giving up!
Best Wishes and Good Luck!