Oh god,dris...i am crying for you here......and I REALLY don't know what to say to you. I know that you have been a rock these past few months, and I know that your children are old enough to stand strong on their own....maybe you will need to gather some strength FROM them now. it is not a one-way system in close families....they can give back to you-their mum-some of thestrength that has come from YOU over the years.....try to lean on them a bit ,hun. it is not a bad thing,and you will all feel better for it. xx