Sorry For Absence.......

[Smowball]

I’ve been a complete berk. The last time I posted I was in a right state.I’d found this lump, seen my doctor, she’d referred me to someone else. Saw them that day, and they said yes there was one, and due to family history(my mum) and the fact it was hereditary, it was likely to be cancerous and she was referring me to a cancer clinic. Well I got into a terrible state when I got home, also knew I’d lost over 3 stone without trying, and so I decided there was no way I didn’t have it. Had a couple of glasses of wine, decided I was 100% going to die of cancer. And then I went on AB. Can’t even remember whose post it was but because I’d absolutely convinced myself I had cancer I blurted out that I had, before I’d been 100% diagnosed. The second I posted it I regretted it. But I was convinced. Didn’t know what to do so I vanished. Bottom line is I get my diagnosis this Wednesday - am seeing my breast surgeon. Hopefully ok but I’m well aware may still be bad news. I know I’m going to get an array of comments on this post, from the lovely to the ‘attention seeking’ ones, but all the ABers I speak to outside of here know I’m not like that. I was just frightened, and still am.
Love to you all - you’re all great and I’ve missed here loads xx

[sadielady]

Have only just seen your post. Hope everything goes well for you tomorrow, will be thinking of you x

[Smowball]

Thankyou hun xx

[MartinMillar]

Any update Smow?

[bednobs]

I see you are on smow - any update?