Nailit, take a chill pill.
No you don't have to worship anybody. Your choice.
Do I ever ask, ''Why?''
Yes of course. Do you think I'm a complete moron?
One of the charities I support is Claire House, a hospice for children and babies.
Medicine cannot do any more for these young ones, apart from palliative care, and supporting their families.
A loving God? Then why?
The answer is the terrible consequences of living in a fallen world, fallen through sin, and separation from God, and the curse of death.
We are responsible for this fallen world, but death is not the end, only the end of this earthly existence.
We can do nothing to save ourselves from this dire situation.
If we could, we would be automatons, robots without free will, which got us into this mess in the first place.
A loving God?
Yes indeed.
He has saved us from the consequences of our sin.
Through the person of Jesus Christ, God has satisfied His perfect justice, and His perfect love for us is manifested.
We can know Him now, and never be the same again, and live more satisfying lives.
Do I ever ask, ''Why?''