Suicidal Thoughts About Prison

[Timsos]

I have Asperger's syndrome and an intensely crippling fear of being locked up. I was arrested for fraud against a company and put in a cell for under a day, it was the most shocking and terrifying experience of my life. Despite me continually complaining to the doctor and the staff about the severe anguish I was suffering being locked up, and just begging them either to leave the door open or let me lay in the medical room they really couldn't have cared less and made it clear I was just a nuisance to them until they started ignoring me.

I was released on bail but didn't show up, not because I'm afraid to accept responsibility but because I literally cannot last another second being locked up and they will just leave me helpless. I've gone into hiding because the fear is so intense I still experience nightmares and panic attacks at the memories of being locked up.

Obviously this is no way to live my life I want to go home, but I would seriously take my own life instead of being locked in prison. I know some people will accuse me of trying to use suicide to blackmail my way out of prison, but I'm completely serious, I know they will make it impossible for me to commit suicide in prison so I would rather do it before I get locked up again if there's no other choice. I'm not a threat to anyone and want to pay the money back to try and resolve things, but my lawyers assure me prison is inevitable. Being locked up really was and is the worst torture I could imagine and it will certainly lead me to take my own life, probably as a preemptive measure if I can't find a solution.

Can anyone please help me? Are there some human rights grounds can save me as this amounts to torture?

[crzyryn]

You need to speak to someone like the crisis team.

[Jackdaw33]

You need psychiatric help. First port of call is you GP who will refer you. There is no guarantee, but it may be shown that you are unfit to stand trial.

[Orderlimit]

You need to sort the bail issue out asap, contact your solicitor or the company and they will advise you whats best to do, if you just leave it you face being detained for breach of bail offences and may affect further bailing decisions.

If the search on line there are many organisations that can help.

[Peter Pedant]

we cant help but a doctor and lawyer can

you need to contact both

Dont skip bail - you will get arrested. Do Do something now

[kylesmum]

I agree with everyone else, you absolutely must see your GP and Lawyer. There is no guarantees in life, as you've found and you've also found that once you're locked up no-one really cares, it's another form of punishment, without trial.
So on that basis cover all your bases. If that means changing your meds via your GP to allow you to cope better and/or submitting a plea detailing your medical history. Do it now.
Remember though, no-one wants to be locked up, so make sure you make a very convincing case to set yourself apart from everyone else.I truly wish you well.

[Khandro]

//Are there some human rights grounds can save me as this amounts to torture ?//
No.

[EDDIE51]

Sorry to be blunt but all lawyers, police officers,magistrates and judges have heard the ' I can't stand to be locked up' excuse many times. It may be true in your case but it has been so overused you are not going to get a lot of sympathy.

[flobadob]

You could try and go for an Oscar Prestorious, house arrest

[PankySmooch]

Good point EDDIE51, if every criminal tried that old chestnut the prisons would be empty in a year

[kylesmum]

Could some of you not even tried to be more subtle given the OP implied he'd take his own life as a pre-emptive measure?

Sometimes it's not necessary to be quite so blunt ...it's not like he murdered someone !

[chanel5]

Although I am trying to find sympathy, I have to confess it is difficult to do so. If you had got away with it, and had never been caught, suicidal thoughts would be far from your mind as you spent the money you had stolen. But looking for sympathy and help now that you have been caught and can't face the consequences is a bit late. But of course you already know all this so I will try again to be sympathetic. Asperger's Syndrome is a difficult condition to live with and it impairs social judgement so maybe your decision-making process was faulty when you decided to commit fraud, or maybe being on the autism spectrum impairs an individual's ability to recognise possible consequences. I just don't know. But you need to deal with things as they are now. Your problems will not go away. As an Asperger's sufferer you are classed as a vulnerable adult so I don't think they had the right to lock you up without the presence of an appropriate adult. You need to contact a crisis mental health team urgently because the police must be prevented from locking you up again, unless they have put in place the appropriate safeguards for your mental health. I truly hope you can get this sorted for the sake of your mental health.

[Mamyalynne]

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[mastercraft]

Ma'm, this post is in the "most recent" section.... no "disclaimer" notice is displayed. Is it fair to suspend people for their morals?

[Kromovaracun]

Oh. Likewise, I saw it on the homepage. I'll shut up if that's not what's supposed to be here.

[crzyryn]

Kromovaracun he is someones son. He can't speak to his own family otherwise he wouldn't be here. I have children and they haven't all been perfect but I've always been there. Have you ever been in his position? your criticism isn't wanted.

[EDDIE51]

The problem is that of all the NHS services Mental health has suffered the biggest cuts. In many areas it has all but ceased to exist. Timsos may find it hard to get help.

[Mamyalynne]

A bit late for me to reply, MC I can't comment on the fairness - I have no power to suspend anyone.

I suppose as members we should all make ourselves aware of the guidance in each topic - I am as guilty as the next in wandering off the subject and simply felt a timely reminder was right at the time.