Seizure?

[dannyday5821]

i have been abusing pain killers and recently been taking dihydrocodine instead of cocodamol because the effects last longer. i fell to the floor and although i was conscious i was skirming about on the floor and frothing and spitting. it went on for 5 mins and it was wierd, i wasnt in pain but mentally i felt like i was and kept wriggling about - was this a partial seizure? or am i just so head wonderfully fluffed from depression that it was just an 'episode?'

im a bit concerned because i had a fit when i abused tramadol about 4 years ago, is it worth going to hosp or the doctors?

[Kiki-frog]

Definitely see your doc as soon as you can.

[DJHawkes]

why would someone with mental health issues be on prescription painkillers? We haven't been told the reason for the medication at all.

[dannyday5821]

i already have money, i thought about going away, but meh, where the hell would i go? and oh, lets go to a tropical island and feel exactly the same, except in a hotel room. sorry, i know you meant well.

besides, i quit my job, so ive got to be a good boy and use my money to pay the mortage :(

[dannyday5821]

oh, and i stole the pain killers from my dad, and ive got a stupid supply of cocodamol with me.

and lol 'mental health issues?!' - what, it couldn't be the realisation of absolute fail? tell me, because im curious, what is better? what is well? being another ant feeding the economy for no real reason? you don't seem to understand. i have friends, but all i do is upset them, and relationships? hahahaha! what the hell is a re...lay...shon...ship? strange word!

[DJHawkes]

your dad must be in agony then , he's been prescribed those heavy duty painkillers by his ~GP because he must need them, he can't go back and ask for more it doesn;t work like that, you should make an effort to get those tablets back to him or he will be another victi of your dilemma. I don;t think you have 'mental health issues' I think you have a personality disorder but that's only based on what you are typing on a screen, which could all be a fantasy anyway.

[sara3]

danny, what kind of answer would please you?

[dannyday5821]

nah its okay, my dad got a repeat prescription a few years ago, and stock piled them, i took like 16 out of 5 boxes full, so its okay.

well, im curious, why do you think i have a personallity disorder? i actually believe that more than a 'mental health issue' still, i dont see it that way, i see that as dehumanising 28 years of life and experience, catogaeising my life into a neat little tick box, completley annihilating what it is to be human.

but thats just my opinion

[sandyRoe]

You might think you life is bad but I've a suspicion you've no idea what bad can be. My nephew abused drink and drugs to such an extent that he started to get seizures. He fell when drunk and hit his head. He was taken to a hospital but a junior doctor smelt the drink and let him sit. He was eventually noticed by someone more senior but by then it was too late. He's aged less than 40 and is going to spend the rest of his life in care.

[DJHawkes]

how much do you spend on smoke a week?

[daffy654]

You have mental health issues whether you want to admit it or not, it is very obvious by the content of your posts and the fact that your doctor has previously prescribed you citalopram.

[dannyday5821]

what answer would please me? i dunno, i wasnt looking for appeasement. i was more just curious, but didnt want to trawl online

...or maybe, as i lay on a cold floor of an empty trashed room, i thought i would try to reach out to other human beings and try to converse in some way.

[sara3]

what's happening with your uni application?

[dannyday5821]

so, what was the point of that observation? am i supposed to go... 'oooh so it's not my fault its because that little tick box sheet said i was mentally unwell'

besides, who defines mental illness? it annoys me because even if you are right, i see it as a realisation of truth. coupled with my naturally pessimistic and defeatist attitude, i have given up, and lost all reason for motivation. to me, that is a natural train of thought, because thats who i am, thats my personality - effectivley, what youre saying is that my personality is flawed because it happens to be self destructive.

why is self destructivness a flaw?

[dannyday5821]

oh yeah, finally done that. im supposed to sign on and find a job now, meh, that only means being around people, and dont get me wrong, i like people, i like talking, i like socialising, but i end up eventually fearing that ive said or done something wrong that like the emotionally imature child that i am, i run away like a kid running from home or school!

then i realised ill have to 'socialise' to some extent at uni... god that scares the absolute flump out of me! yay fail!

[dannyday5821]

god... i sound perfectly pathetic! well, i hope atleast youve enjoyed laughing at me, enjoy the lulz, oh, and dont forget its very important that whilst your laughing at me, you need to point in a mocking fashion :p

[AlwaysConfused]

do an online course then, Danny. You have the intelligence to do it, don't waste it. It's not cheap, but you said you have some pennies aside....

[AlwaysConfused]

...and from where I am sitting, noone is laughing at you. I honestly think you are an intelligent bloke, but you have hit a dark point in your life. Believe it or not - a lot of us have been there. You'll fight your way through and come out positively beaming.

[EvianBaby]

How many painkillers do/did you actually take?

[daffy654]

You obvioulsy just want an argument danny and I can't be bothered to indulge you. Do whatever you want, I couldn't care less.

[magsmay]

@DAFFY - your compassion amazes me -here's hoping you never have to cope with a mental illness